I start my new job this week at B and M discount stores and it is a building site at the moment. I am covered in dust from head to foot and I am in need of a good long bath. I didn't make checkout supervisor but ah well, I can work up to it.
My family are great and Ben is working as hard as ever at Morrisons. I ams till studying for my MA and working on my dissertation proposal. I am working next on Friday for a few hours and then I am going out to dinner with my fella.
I no longer work for M and S and I am currently looking for a new career whilst studying for my Masters. I have had some very low down moments in my life recently.
However on the plus ive had a few nice days out in leeds and Halifax as well as having more time to spend on my studies and personal life. I am concentrating on my relationship and family research at the moment. I have got back to 1785 with my family tree and it is progressing nicely and I will be writing it all up at the end of this month.
I also have 5000 words to write by April and a presentation to do in between all those words!!!! So its all busy at the moment and I have interviews lined up and i am handling my debts ect and I am going to be coping alright for the next three weeks. I may go offline for a while but I will have to see how things go.
Well well, new facebook and new profile so all going well at the moment. Apart froma few personal snags in my life things are going alright fornow. My medical stuff is on hold for a while, but i have the support of my faily around me right now. I am on cytalopram and migraleve for the headaches and mild depression. I am feeling alot better for it and i am finding that I more alert and better in myself overall. I am loving my job at The Trafford Centre, just dont make me go there on my day off please!!!! :P:P:P hehe!
How is everyone else doing in thw bww? (big wild world) I am busily reading Twilight by Steph Meyer and absoloutly loving it. And i cant wait to see Twilight in December!!!
But double discount day at Marksies....lots of goodies were bought hahahahaha!!!! louise xxx
Okay the last day at work couldve gone a lot better but thankfully it is over finally. I have been feeling ignored by my dad lately alot, feeling like he doesnt actually wanna be my dad any more. Now that I am 21 it feels like he has decided to jsut stop being my dad.
But I will not dwell on the bad feelings. I have a few medical updates too today.
For the past six years of my life I have been in and out of hospital seeing various doctors about my absent periods. Recently I have been told that I have a cut in the passage between my anal hole and my vagina, it is a cut witihn an opening. I always used to say that i was plumbed up wrong, but never did i thinkt hat blood would actually come out the rong way shall we say! I am still waiting to have my own period and waiting on an appointment at Leeds General to come through in the post. The fact that I dont have periods is constantly on my mind and I jsut fail to feel feminine at all. When I see other girls in the loos complaining about periods it does my tree in that they hate getting them when all I wish is to see blood on my knickers sometimes!!!
I am looking forward to strarting mynew job tomorrow but have money worries too at the moment. I am back living with Ben but living at my mums for part of the week whislt at work. I am feeling overwhelmed by the world at the moment but i know i will get hrough everything.
I have just been successful in my job interview. I now work at Marks and Spencer at the Trafford Centre. It has been a few tulmutus weeks and things are finally getting back to normal. Although I am not a hundred percent better I am well on my way to getting there. The job is only temporary. I am studying hard for my MA and have twenty engravings to look at over the next week and I have to analyse them in detail.
I am trying to get my bedroom sorted and all newly designed. I cant wait to ge tmy new curtains in and the drapes will look so elegant!